Crazy Already.

Stephen King, who i would kneel to, was on the view.  He was talking about his writing of course, and said in the opening scene of The Shining with Jack Nicholson he thought “he’s crazy already.”  So true.
Some people do not need major events to become insane, they just are.  But what really is insane? [...]

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in heat

I have recently come to the realization that there may be another type of submissive frenzy that really isn’t a total frenzy because it isn’t just a girl needing to submit, needing to find One. It’s often, in fact, i think more kin to happen to girls who are already in a relationship whether [...]

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Blah

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.
And then some more, blah.
Dropping.
Arms reaching, fingers hoping, into the darkness.
Reaching and stretching, into nothing.
It surrounds, it fills, it is the air that is breathed and the beat of my heart.
Nothingness.
Dropping down, falling, but into what.
Words all around. Am i worthless. Am i nothing. Am i [...]

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Hypnotized.

So he had me write a story that he wanted to be dark and deep and that i’d never told another soul. Half true, the rest fantasy. So i did. And 2 others since. Other then the camping one, far too extreme for my journal.
It’s exciting. Getting tasks to do. [...]

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boom boom pow

Words and actions.
i kept thinking, after all the crap i’ve been through, sl, rl, years, recent etc. that people can say all these words, and being the hopefull one i am, i trust with that first level of trust, which isn’t blind trust but is dangerous enough to lead into the more deeper gripping [...]

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scratched

scratch scratch scratch.
i refuse to be brought down by pettiness and lies.
i refuse to feel guilty for knowing the truth.
When i broke it off with my ex Master rl, a good year before we actually ended it officially (i sucked back in easy).  I went sky diving.
Not sure how slave like that is.  But see [...]

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Flashes…

Recently, i was told that one of the differences in determining if someone is a sociopath or not, is their ability as adults to admit wrong doings.  It was told to me in the context of explaining adolescence.  A teenager never says they are sorry.  Having raised one (or partly) i can attest that getting [...]

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Vulnerability pokes?

I am now realizing that getting laid off has me out of touch with everyone. Not checking face book in over a week, i missed 4 things, including a friends bday, and 3 things i needed to do. Oops.
i have a sim.
A homestead, so it limits the people, but i have a [...]

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Exploring

I am getting to see so much that i never knew existed in SL.  And having a blast doing it.
When i came to SL, i wandered pretty much stratight into Gor, and other than dancing or bdsm stuff or art galleries Koy took me to, i really didn’t get out much.
I’ve been exploring with friends.  [...]

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Disturbing doll.

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